Choosing Me

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Yeah…

You called me an asshole, said you hate me sometimes.

But you don’t know what I’ve been fighting inside.

I ain’t ignoring you just to make you hurt…

I’m trying to heal from the one who hurt me first.

You call me an asshole, say you hate me sometimes,

But you don’t see the war that’s been going on in my mind.

Yeah, sometimes I miss you, I ain’t gonna lie,

But I keep pushing you away just so I can survive.

You were the one who broke my heart, left me hurting inside,

Now you’re mad ‘cause I ignored you, kept you out of my life.

I ain’t doing this to hurt you, I’m just trying to heal,

Sometimes distance is the only way I know what’s real.

You wanted me gone, so I gave you what you asked,

Stopped reaching out, started leaving you in the past.

Now you’re mad because I don’t hit your phone,

Like you forgot you were the one who left me alone.

I know I could’ve handled things a little better,

Could’ve said how I felt instead of changing the weather.

But every time I see you, all the feelings come back,

And I’m scared if I get close, I’m gonna fall off track.

I don’t hate you, girl, that’s something you should know,

I’m just protecting my heart, that’s why I had to let go.

You think I’m being cold, think I don’t give a damn,

But I’m fighting all these feelings the best way that I can.

I still remember everything we used to do,

And sometimes late at night, yeah, I still think of you.

But memories don’t mean I gotta go back,

Sometimes loving someone means knowing when to step back.

You say, “Why you ignoring me?”

“Why you acting like you don’t care?”

Truth is, I care too much,

That’s why I can’t stay there.

If I keep you close,

How am I supposed to heal?

I had to lose you twice

Just to understand what’s real.

You call me an asshole, say you hate me sometimes,

But you don’t see the war that’s been going on in my mind.

Yeah, sometimes I miss you, I ain’t gonna lie,

But I keep pushing you away just so I can survive.

You were the one who broke my heart, left me hurting inside,

Now you’re mad ‘cause I ignored you, kept you out of my life.

I ain’t doing this to hurt you, I’m just trying to heal,

Sometimes distance is the only way I know what’s real.

Maybe you miss the person who was always right there,

The one who answered every call, showed you that he cared.

But that version of me had to disappear,

‘Cause staying close to you kept bringing back the tears.

Sometimes I wanna text you, say “I miss you too,”

Then I remember all the pain I went through.

You can’t break my heart, then get mad when I protect it,

Can’t leave me in the past, then wonder why I disconnected.

I’m not trying to punish you, I’m finding myself,

Learning how to love me without somebody else.

Maybe someday we’ll talk and everything will be okay,

But right now I need space, I need to walk away.

So if I push you away, don’t take it as