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Lyrics
Hook
I been mixin’ my pain with chemicals
Tryna feel normal, that shit never works
High for the night, then it get unbearable
Love feel fake, but the pills still flirt
I been drownin’ my thoughts in medical
Doctor said slow down, I sped it up first
Heart too loud, so I numb it with Percs
Smile for the world while my soul still hurts
Verse 1
Yeah, I wake up sick, need somethin’ to feel
Coffee and a pill just to make shit real
Everybody say, “Bro, just heal,”
But they ain’t never had demons knockin’ on the wheel
I don’t chase highs, I escape lows
Same vice, different nights, same clothes
I tried love, that shit came with a halo
Then it fell off fast, now my heart got holes
I don’t do drugs to be cool, I do drugs to cope
There’s a difference, but they don’t fuckin’ know
If I’m sober too long, my mind get close
To a dark-ass place I don’t like to go
Hook
I been mixin’ my pain with chemicals
Tryna feel normal, that shit never works
High for the night, then it get unbearable
Love feel fake, but the pills still flirt
I been drownin’ my thoughts in medical
Doctor said slow down, I sped it up first
Heart too loud, so I numb it with Percs
Smile for the world while my soul still hurts
Verse 2
I been poppin’ my feelings, not just prescriptions
Every memory sharp, every thought intrusive
I loved that girl like it was religion
She left me alone with my bad decisions
Now it’s late nights, bad habits
Bottle half empty, brain full static
I tell myself, “Bro, you got this,”
Then I relapse mentally, fuckin’ panic
I ain’t proud of the shit I been leanin’ on
But it keep me alive when I’m feelin’ gone
Everybody want peace, I just want it calm
Just one quiet night where my head don’t scream
Bridge
I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel
There’s a difference they don’t ever hear
If I overdose, don’t call me weak
I been fightin’ wars in my fuckin’ sleep
Verse 3
I tried clean livin’, it felt fake
Like raw emotions too sharp to take
So I roll one up, let my heart sedate
Tell myself I’ll quit on a better day
They say I’m lost, maybe that’s true
But I still show up, still push through
If this pain the cost of seein’ truth
Then fuck it, I’ll pay it—what else to do?
Hook / Outro
I been mixin’ my pain with chemicals
Tryna feel normal, that shit never works
High for the night, then it get unbearable
Still chase love even though it hurts
If I crash one day, just know this first:
I tried my best in a fucked-up world
This ain’t glorification, this a cry for help
Wrapped in a beat, poured out in words
Details
GeneratedJan 17, 2026
Duration2:59
LanguageEnglish
Style
Emo melodic trap, sad but upbeat energy, guitar melodies, heavy 808s, punchy trap drums, autotuned emotional rap hooks
Credits
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velocityfall
velocityfallModelAria v5
