[Verse 1]
I still set your place at the table
Catch myself
Then stare at the chair
Your jacket hangs by the doorway
Like it’s waiting on you there
People say I’m “getting better”
They don’t see me in the shower at dawn
White tiles
Shaking hands
Cold water
Just trying to remember you’re gone
[Chorus]
It’s a war just to feel normal
Every breath feels like a test I’ll fail
I’m a ghost in my own story
Walking through the days with the safety off
I’m still swinging at the shadows in my head
I’m held together by a thread
[Verse 2]
I laugh too loud at the small talk
So they think I’m fine
I play that part
But your name sits under my tongue
Like a word that could rip me apart
I scroll past photos of summer
Swipe away before the cracks all spread
Whole world spins on like nothing happened
Mine stopped the night I lost my best friend
[Chorus]
It’s a war just to feel normal
Every breath feels like a test I’ll fail
I’m a ghost in my own story
Walking through the days with the safety off
I’m still swinging at the shadows in my head
I’m held together by a thread
[Bridge]
Did you know I’d learn to crawl again? (yeah)
How to stand up in this heavy skin?
If you’re somewhere
Watching over me
Help me fight through one more day like this
[Chorus]
It’s a war just to feel normal
Every breath feels like a test I’ll fail
I’m a ghost in my own story
Walking through the days with the safety off
I’m still swinging at the shadows in my head
I won’t break
Even if I bend
I’m held together
Held together by a thread