Verse 1
Everyone’s been asking how I've been,
I smile out of habit, hiding the pain within
I've learned to hide the truth like art.
A quiet lie I know by heart.
Every answer carefully measured,
The truth inside never to be heard.
If you only i could bare to break the silence,
You’d think I’m making no sense
Pre-Chorus
So I'll tell saying what they want to hear,
While I'm fighting not to disappear.
Chorus
Yeah... I'm fine.
If F is for finally
not caring what people think of me.
Yeah... I'm fine
If I is for
I'm barely making it through.
Yeah... I'm fine
If N is for
No one could ever understand
The war I live in my head.
Yeah... I'm fine
If E is for
Existing in a body that don’t feel like mine
Then yeah...
I'm fine.
Verse 2
Every mirror shows something I’m not,
every victory feels not earned but bought.
They clap for someone I don't even know,
While I wait do my best to put on a show
Every smile coming at a cost,
Cause all I feel is completely lost.
It’s exhausting to pretend
But this facade could never end.
Pre-Chorus
If I stopped leaving them blind,
They’d think I’d lost my fucking mind.
Chorus
So, Yeah... I'm fine.
If F is for finally
I stopped believing I am okay.
Yeah... I'm fine
If I is for
I'm drowning inside my thoughts every day.
Yeah... I'm fine
If N is for
Noone sees I’ve been sick for awhile,
Behind the jokes and tired smile.
Yeah... I'm fine
If E is for
Every single day I wonder
If I'll ever feel alive.
Yeah...
I'm fine.
Bridge
Maybe one day
I won't have to rehearse every conversation.
Maybe one day
My own reflection won't feel like an accusation.
Maybe one day
I'll believe the love they give is really mine.
Until then...
I'll answer like I always do. I’m Fine.
Final Chorus
Yeah... I'm fine.
If F is for finally
I'm done pretending I don't hurt.
Yeah... I'm fine
If I is for
I still hope there's something worth fighting for.
Yeah... I'm fine
If N is for
No, I’m don’t think I’m okay.
If E is for
Eventually the struggle just gets easier to hide.
So when you ask me how I've been...
I'll probably smile...
And whisper,
"Yeah... I'm fine."
