Chorus:
It’s not you, it’s the war in my mind,
I’m searching for peace I can’t seem to find.
If I pull away, just know it’s not hate—
I’m battling demons I didn’t create.
Verse 1:
The problem’s not you,
It’s me.
It’s all my anxiety!
Jumping to conclusions is not a propriety.
I replay every word like a song on repeat,
Looking for signs in the silence I meet.
Overthinking’s a cycle, a self-made society,
Where doubt is the king and I bow down to sobriety.
I walk through this life with uncertainty,
Constantly arguing with myself internally!
Trying to find peace in the chaos I see,
But my thoughts wage war with no clemency.
I wear a smile, but it’s just for society,
Inside I’m drowning, tied down by anxiety!
I reach for connection, then push it away,
Scared you’ll leave if I ask you to stay.
I want to be open, I want to be free,
But my heart locks the door and throws out the key!
I bottle it up till I’m ready to break,
Apologize for feelings I never meant to fake.
You see my silence, think it’s apathy,
But it’s just me trapped in my own gravity.
I’m not running from you, I’m just lost in my head,
Fighting the voices, the things that I’ve said.
It’s not that I don’t care, I’m just trying to breathe,
Caught in a storm that won’t ever leave.
If I seem distant, if I don’t speak true,
It’s not your fault — it’s the battles I do.
I wish I could love you the way that I should,
But I’m still learning how to feel understood.
Chorus:
It’s not you, it’s the war in my mind,
I’m searching for peace I can’t seem to find.
If I pull away, just know it’s not hate—
I’m battling demons I didn’t create.
Verse 2:
I’m tired of choking on thoughts I can’t kill,
Fighting these demons with sheer force of will.
Don’t tell me to calm down, don’t say it’s okay,
You don’t know the war I fight every day.
I scream in my head while I smile to your face,
My peace ain’t missing, it’s been burned without trace.
I’m done with pretending I’m fine when I’m not,
You want the truth? This is all that I’ve got.
My heart’s on lockdown, my mind’s a grenade,
And I’m one wrong move from going insane.
I don’t need pity, I need you to see
That love ain’t easy when you’re fighting to breathe.
So don’t take it personal when I push and resist
I’m just tryna exist in the cracks I don’t fix!
Chorus:
It’s not you, it’s the war in my mind,
I’m searching for peace I can’t seem to find.
If I pull away, just know it’s not hate
I’m battling demons I didn’t create.
Verse 3:
Don’t tell me “calm down,” I’ve heard it before,
Like peace is a pill I can grab at the store.
This ain’t a phase, it’s a lifelong fight,
I bleed through my thoughts every day, every night.
Now I spit out the truth just to try and stay whole.
I don’t need fixing, I need to be heard,
Not judged for the scars, not silenced or blurred.
So if I push back, it’s not to offend
It’s just me in survival, again and again.
I wrestle with shadows you’ll never see,
These chains ain’t visible but they’re suffocating me.
