Sleepless nights

I don't know no I don't know how to weather this storm. I'm dieing without you keeping me warm. Sleepless nights filled with memories of you riding till that morning light. I can't let this be the end no we can't just be friends. To save me some embarrassment. We can't just pretend it didn't mneean a thing. Those words echo in my mind about how you just want me for my body and my money. Does real love still exist. Because I am covered in fake love. I hate how empty you make me feel. Skilled you are Skilled in breaking my heart. It is ripped apart every time I wake-up to your side of the bed vacant. I hate the space between you and me I can't get over the pink glow your cheeks had. I don't know much about the wound. I just know how deep this cut is. Your absence created a monster. My life feels like a dumpster fire. Ohhh high was the feeling your love would always leave me in. It was my drug for so long. I'm now a addict but yet the bad guy at the same damn time. I feel like that one Greek guy who flew to close to the sun. I can still feel myself falling and there is no hope nope none. It's time to pull me out of the oven I'm so done. I spent most of my life searchin for some one like the woman you pretend to be. You were the light to the dark in my life. Used fly higher than cloud nine. I don't think I have ever been this low. Having you tell me it was all fake. Was the very day a part of me died. You left me behind like I was nothing. My friends tell me I'll find someone but none can match like we did even if it was a lie. I still love the fantasy too much to quit. No I can't forget that night at bar's photo booth.