[Intro]
[whispered vocals]
Eyes open
Still falling
Same ceiling
Different coffin
[Verse 1]
Crushed pills on my phone screen
Your name in the cracked glass staring back at me
Tears in a fast-food parking lot
Laughing while I bleed through a fresh white tee
Swear I feel safest when I’m half gone
Body on the mattress, soul long gone
You say "live for me", that feels wrong
I only feel your touch when the dose strong
[Chorus]
Razorblade lullaby, sing me to sleep
Every kiss you gave cut a little too deep
If this is what love is, I’m not alright
So I chase that burn just to make it feel right
Hold me like a habit you can’t fight
Break me like a promise late at night
If this is what love is, I’m not alright
So I chase that burn just to make it feel right
[Verse 2]
Black hoodie in July, I’m freezing inside
You ask what’s on my mind, I say "I’m fine" and lie
Heart like a bathroom mirror, fogged, smeared lines
I write "help" with my finger, watch it fade in time
Every argument a new excuse
To sink back down, let the colors fuse
You slam the door, I taste that fuse
Red and blue lights in the rearview
I swear I’ll stop
Right after this one
Right after this call
Right after I’m gone
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
You loved the broken parts, never asked me why
You held the shaking hands, never dried my eyes
I keep picking at the scars just to feel alive
If heaven feels like this, I’ll choose the lie
[Chorus]