(Verse 1)
I woke up with your name burning on my tongue
Like saying it out loud could bring you back to me
Your scent is still trapped inside these sheets you left
And this empty house still screams your name at me.
(Pre-Chorus)
It hurts to breathe when you’re not around
But it hurts even more when you are
When you hold me like you didn’t break me yesterday
(Chorus)
This is love, slowly
The kind that kills you without a sound
The kind that teaches you to smile with blood in your mouth
And still thank the pain somehow
You’ve got me on my knees
Begging you, baby, please don’t leave
Even though I know if you stay
You’ll destroy me all over again
But I’d rather live in your ruins
Than have nothing left of you
(Verse 2)
I keep your “I’m sorry”s in a drawer that never closes
Read them when I need to remember why I cry
I still have pictures of me smiling while you tore me open
And I look at them like they’re the only home I recognize
(Bridge – voice + piano only)
Sometimes I think about walking out
Closing this door and never looking back
But your voice inside my head whispers
“Without me you’ll never know how to love”
And the worst part of all…
Is that I believe it
(Final Chorus – full explosion)
This is love, slowly!
The kind that burns you down inch by inch
The kind that makes you beg for just one more drop of poison
Because without it you forget how to live
I’d rather you killed me than ever let me go
I’d rather feel your hands around my throat
Than never feel them again
So stay…
Even if it’s only to ruin me
Because I don’t know who I am
Without the way you hurt me
(Outro – voice fading, piano dying)
Slowly…
You’re killing me slowly…
And I still love you
Like this.