New Breath, New start.
Pause or a restart.
Switching to a sweetheart.
Going in it all hard.
Stone cold reflections of minor inflections.
Iced out caculations decribing the pain inside.
Suble directions to being kind.
Going blind just to say i tried.
Lay my hands by my side.
sigh.
New Breath, New fresh.
wrenched open, past moments.
Noises get contorted as i expose the bare bone of my interposing.
i dont know where im going.
Slowly Slowing, feels alot more rapid, untill i grasp it.
Ravages against my hand, Left with no senses.
Yet i hold pretenses, small instances of simple living.
Polaring on loosing it.
Still have a moment to permit.
Feeling goosebumps, Hearts hung.
Anxiety or Something close to panic.
I weponize the bodies methods.
Highjacking the systems, then fixing mental symptoms.
Pilgrim every last bit of dopamine. Conquer the saught after energy.
Stencil the vessel to signal the Vagus stream.
Going more exterme.
All edge blunting, Loosing buzzing,
Self Judging, still nothing.
Self Cutting, yet no blood is coming.
questioning the self harming.
Slow to digestion. Emzyns bring suggestions, yet i bring no nutrition to support the vision.
Soaking up pity.
New Breath, New Head.
Doesnt mean im better because ive changed.
Ive gone deranged.
Exchanged flavors for favors.
Added waivers and hinders.
Made sure the printer always inked a stain.
Wanted a reason to complain.
to break.
Shake the world from its core, show how it curls.
Shrivles away by simple mistakes.
Killing snakes from anothers plauge.
New breath, What did i want to make?
Walked around since i was old enough to understand that i had to hide my plans. Out and open was made for controling. Danced in circles, untill I got sick and nauseous. I wanted to stop this, but when was the right moment?
The more i kept going, the easier it was to feel nothing.
Spinning out of control, after i just wanted to take a small stroll. Didnt understand how to let go.
New breath to try again.
Either direction.
What happens is what i get.
