I learned to stay quiet when I needed to scream
Got good at pretending I don’t feel anything
Let people love me just enough, then leave
Like I was something temporary
I held their words like they were truth in my hands
Every “you’re too much” turned into who I am
But I’m getting tired of shrinking to fit
A love that never really exists
Maybe I’m not broken, maybe I’m just bruised
From giving all my heart to people passing through
I deserve a love that doesn’t disappear at night
Doesn’t make me question if I’m worth the fight
I want arms that hold me like I’m not too much
Not just someone they can touch
I deserve a love that doesn’t come and go
Doesn’t leave me standing in the cold alone
I’ve been asking God what I’m doing wrong
But maybe I’ve been worthy all along
I memorize the silence when they pull away
Blame it on myself like it’s my DNA
Like if I was prettier, quieter, less
Maybe they would’ve stayed
But I see it clearer now than I did before
I was giving everything, they gave me war
And I kept calling it love just to survive
While it slowly killed me inside
I’m done chasing shadows that don’t choose me back
Done building my home on emotional cracks
I deserve a love that doesn’t disappear at night
Doesn’t make me question if I’m worth the fight
I want arms that hold me like I’m not too much
Not just someone they can touch
I deserve a love that doesn’t come and go
Doesn’t leave me standing in the cold alone
I’ve been asking God what I’m doing wrong
But maybe I’ve been worthy all along
Maybe love’s not something I have to earn
Maybe it’s not pain every time it burns
Maybe there’s a version of me they’ll see
And stay…
Or maybe I just need to learn to believe
That I’m already everything I
I deserve a love that finally feels like home
Not another night staring at my phone
I want something real, something that won’t fade
Not another almost, not another mistake
I deserve a love that sees me, every part
Doesn’t flinch when it gets to my heart
I’ve been asking God what I’m doing wrong…
But I think I’ve been worthy all along
Yeah… I think I’ve been worthy all along
NOCTRA
