[Verse 1]
Seventeen
You wheezed once
Then you sank on me
White tile
Hospital light on your cheeks
You said "baby, breathe"
But you couldn't breathe
I was holding your coat and your rosary
Begged every god I never believed
Your hand slipped
Right out my fingers
Your perfume still on my t-shirt lingers
Doctor talking like the TV news
"Time of death"—
I just stared at your shoes
Wrote the number on a paper cup
Like that could wake you up
[Chorus]
I lost my mama in my arms
Seventeen, I watched you fall
Now every word I never said
Just echoes off these bedroom walls
I talk to the ceiling like you still there
Bleeding my heart in this midnight air
I wanna tell you I was wrong
But I think it's too late
Too late for you to hear this song
[Verse 2]
You worked late
Came home with your feet all sore
Still laughed, still danced
In the kitchen on that busted floor
I snapped back
Slamming doors like that proved something
"Leave me alone"
When all you wanted was my company
You asked, "how was school?"
I just scrolled, zoned out
When you were fighting for breath
I would've killed for one more shout
One more "eat your food"
One more "pull your jeans up straight"
Now I argue with your ghost
About the homework I ain't do today
[Chorus]
I lost my mama in my arms
Seventeen, I watched you fall
Now every word I never said
Just echoes off these bedroom walls
I talk to the ceiling like you still there
Bleeding my heart in this midnight air
I wanna tell you I was wrong
But I think it's too late
Too late for you to hear this song
[Bridge]
I say "I love you" into empty rooms (empty rooms)
Fold your old sweater like it's holding you (holding you)
If heaven got a window, do you see me pray?
Or am I just talking to yesterday?
[Chorus]
I lost my mama in my arms
Seventeen, I watched you fall
Now every word I never said
Just echoes off these bedroom walls
I talk to the ceiling like you still there
Bleeding my heart in this midnight air
I hope somehow it hits your heart
Even if you're far beyond
So I rap these tears into the dark
In case it's not too late
Not too late for you to hear this song