Jordan’s life by trixses - Zona

Jordan’s life by trixses - Zona

Lyrics

Verse 1

My mind was never quiet

Always running, always split

Too many voices talking over

What it meant to try and live

Some days I couldn’t tell

Which parts of me were in control

ADHD kept pulling me apart

Depression dragged me low

I learned early how to mask it

How to joke so no one knew

That my head felt like a battlefield

And silence scared me too

Pre-Chorus

I wasn’t broken just to break

I was surviving what I couldn’t escape

Chorus

So I stayed—when my thoughts ran wild

When my mind felt fractured, undefiled

I stayed when focus burned me out

When darkness taught me how to doubt

I didn’t choose the way I felt

But I chose not to let it win

I stayed

Verse 2

High school hallways, bad decisions

Trying to slow my racing head

Found relief in the wrong places

Just to numb what wasn’t said

Drugs didn’t make me fearless

They just made me disappear

They quieted the noise for minutes

Then left me drowning in my fear

I lost pieces of myself

Trying not to feel the pain

But even at my weakest point

Something in me still remained

Pre-Chorus

I didn’t want to die

I just didn’t know how to stay alive

Chorus

I stayed when the escape stopped working

When the numbness wore thin

I faced the parts of me I hid from

And let the healing begin

I stood up shaking, unsure, afraid

But walking forward anyway

I stayed

Verse 3

Then God found me where I was

Not cleaned up, not okay

Didn’t ask me to be whole first

Just asked me not to walk away

He didn’t fix my mind overnight

Didn’t silence every voice

But He gave me something stronger

Than fear—He gave me a choice

ADHD still pulls my focus

DID still splits the seams

Depression still visits sometimes

But it doesn’t own me

Pre-Chorus

Faith didn’t erase my fight

It gave me light inside it

Chorus

I stayed—with all my parts intact

With all my flaws, with all my past

I stayed when healing took its time

When progress wasn’t just a line

God didn’t shame the man I was

He helped me become who I am

I stayed

Bridge

Then I became a husband

And love called me to stand

Then I became a father

Even if just for a span

Evalina changed my soul

Even in her brief hello

I held her with everything I had

And I will forever be her dad

I stayed for her

I stayed for you

I stayed because love is true

Chorus (soft, strong)

I stayed when grief tore through my chest

When strength meant simply not regressing

I stayed when words ran out to say

I stayed when all I had was pray

I am not my illness

I am not my past

I am a man who kept choosing life

And love that lasts

Outro

If the voices try to pull me back

I remember who walked me through

A God who stayed when I couldn’t stand

A wife who saw me true

I stayed.

And I’m still staying.