[Verse 1]
I keep my shirt pressed, my answers precise
A folder of reasons, a calendar life
You ask what I’m feeling, I give you the facts
Then stare at the doorway and don’t take them back
I know how to promise a meeting at ten
I don’t know the language of letting you in
Your hand on the table, mine close to the edge
I want to move closer, I measure the step
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m not afraid of the wanting
I’m afraid of what wanting can do
If I open the lock without warning
Will I leave a bruise on you?
[Chorus]
I want love and lust, but I’m learning the weight
Of a heart that can’t hide behind being okay
I don’t want to hurt you, I don’t want to run
I want to find out what we could become
So if I go slowly, don’t read it as no
I’m making a doorway where walls used to grow
Come closer, stay honest, let tenderness start
I’m trying to bring you the whole of my heart
[Verse 2]
I’ve made professionalism into a room
With a desk in the center and nowhere for you
Every feeling gets filed, every risk gets reviewed
But your laugh breaks the order I’ve worked myself through
You don’t need a speech or a flawless design
Just tell me when distance is crossing the line
I’ll tell you when silence is covering fear
And we can be awkward and still keep each other near
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m not afraid of the wanting
I’m afraid I’ll mistake it for need
But your eyes don’t ask me for perfect
They ask me to stay while I breathe
[Chorus]
I want love and lust, but I’m learning the weight
Of a heart that can’t hide behind being okay
I don’t want to hurt you, I don’t want to run
I want to find out what we could become
So if I go slowly, don’t read it as no
I’m making a doorway where walls used to grow
Come closer, stay honest, let tenderness start
I’m trying to bring you the whole of my heart
[Bridge]
Let’s explore the places I keep out of sight
With a yes that is steady, a no that is kind
No games in the dark, no pretending we know
We can stop, we can laugh, we can start again slow
[Final Chorus]
I want love and lust, and I’m done calling either
A danger I have to outthink or conceal
I don’t want to hurt you, I want to be true
I want to be changed by the time I spend with you
So if I go slowly, come meet me halfway
We’ll build something honest from day after day
Come closer, stay honest, let tenderness start
I’m finally bringing you the whole of my heart
[Outro]
No perfect answer, no practiced reply
Just your hand in mine, and the courage to try