Wishing to be perfect

I wish I was perfect, I wish I was like other girls…

Skinny

Don’t have problems with their back

Has perfect hearing

Doesn’t have breathing problems

Don’t have breakouts an have a hairy body….

Wish I was normal like them…

I wish I didn’t have anger issues most of the time…

Wish I could be what thy are..normal, perfect human beings… without any issues….

….

I hate myself deep down..

an I hide it so well…

I act like I’m fine… but I’m not..

I feel like an empty shell…

I don’t know how to love myself….

I lost my father…

I am always scared of losing more people I love an care for..

no body understands until thy see it in my shoes…

…….

I am happy for having this wonderful guy in my life an I am scared of losing him…

Of all ways…

Finding another girl etc..

I try my hardest..

but seems like that if I do try i feel like I am not trying enough…

I’m scared.. I’m hurt.. I’m worried…

I’m mainly scared of myself more than anything…