Heaven Holds My Family Now

(Verse 1)
There’s a silence in this house I can’t outrun
Echoes of the days when we were young
You were laughin’ on that old front porch
Now I’m talkin’ to a memory I can’t touch

Your boots ain’t by the door no more
But I still hear you on these creaky floors
Like you never really left at all
Just outta sight, down a different road

(Pre-Chorus)
And I swear sometimes I feel you near
Like a whisper sayin’, “I’m still here”

(Chorus)
I’m missin’ my big brother every night
Tryin’ to make it through, tryin’ to be alright
But this world feels colder since you’ve been gone
Like a song with half the words left wrong
Now mama’s gone, and daddy too
Uncle’s up there standin’ next to you
Heaven holds my family now, I believe
But it don’t stop the hurt inside of me

(Verse 2)
Mama used to hum while she cooked our meals
Daddy’s hands taught us what hard work feels
Uncle told those stories late at night
Now I’d give anything to hear ‘em one more time

It’s like the stars took pieces of my soul
One by one, leavin’ empty holes
But I see your faces in the sky
When the moon hangs low and the wind gets quiet

(Pre-Chorus)
And I close my eyes, try to hold on tight
To every laugh, every late-night drive

(Chorus)
I’m missin’ my big brother every day
Still got so many things I need to say
This world just ain’t the same without you here
It’s drownin’ me in all these silent tears
Now mama’s gone, and daddy too
Uncle’s up there standin’ next to you
Heaven holds my family now, I believe
But it don’t stop the ache inside of me

(Bridge)
If I could call heaven just one time
Hear your voice on the other line
I’d tell you I’m tryin’, I’m holdin’ on
Even though everything feels so wrong

You’d probably laugh and tell me, “Hey
You’re stronger than you think, you’ll find your way”
But right now I’m just missin’ you
In everything I say and do

(Soft Chorus)
Yeah, I’m missin’ my big brother tonight
Wish I could see your face in the light
But I know you’re watchin’ from above somehow
With mama, dad, and uncle now

(Outro)
So I’ll keep walkin’ this road alone
Carryin’ love from the life we’ve known
And though my heart feels torn in two
I’ll live enough for me and you

Soft country Chris Stapleton