Verse 1
I wake up...already tired of this shit,Same weight on my chest like it never quits,Sometimes just as tired as when I hit the bed,No reset, no peace, just noise in my head.
No break, no clean start,Just thrown back in,Like the night don't matter—it just starts again.
Pre-Chorus
They say "let it go" like I'm choosing this,Like I woke up wanting to feel like this,Like I asked for this weight...I didn't.
Chorus
Some days I'm just pissed—no reason at all,No one to blame, nowhere to call,Just angry for nothing, can't tell you why,And that makes it worse every time I try.
Got anger and grief both living in me,One loud as hell, one you barely see,I'm not the same—I ain't who I was,Something broke... and it never does.
Verse 2
That grief... it don't yell, it just sits there quiet,Heavy as hell and I can't deny it,Shows up random, don't knock, don't wait,Just hits outta nowhere and shifts the weight.
'Cause someone's gone...and they ain't coming back,And I don't say names—I just carry that.
If I let it out... I don't know if it ends,Feels like everything breaks if it ever begins.
Pre-Chorus
And yeah... I think back, before all this mess,Truth is I didn't know—yeah I'll confess,I didn't know what the fuck I was walking into...Not like this.
Chorus
Some days I'm just pissed—no reason at all,No target to hit but I'm ready to fall,Mad at the air, at the ground, at myself,At shit I can't fix or put on a shelf.
Grief in the silence, anger out loud,Both in my head and neither back down,I'm not the same—I'm just not him,Something changed... and it's stuck like this.
Bridge
There's an EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEin my head that never shuts the hell up,Like it's burned in, stuck on repeat,And I can't turn it off or turn it down or get relief.
I go quiet—I snap—I check out mid-thought,
Sometimes I just wanna stand there and scream—
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
—and not stop.
Break
I see you looking at me...Trying to figure it out...Which version you getting today...
I don't even know.
Verse 3
It's just pieces now—that's all I got,Pieces of people I lost...Pieces of me that didn't come back right,Trying to act normal in the middle of a fight.
Like I'm supposed to just carry on,Like nothing's wrong, like nothing's gone,Like I can pack it up, put it away—
I can't.
Verse 4
I carried things home they said time would heal,But time ain't touched half the things that I feel,Some faces still show up when I close my eyes,Some voices still echo from those old nights.
I've buried good people before their time,Read too many names that still cross my mind,And every goodbye leaves a mark somewhere,You learn how to live with it—you don't repair.
So if I seem distant, if I seem gone,I'm fighting old battles long after they're done,Trying to be better than yesterday was,Trying to hold together what's left of us.
Final Chorus
Some days I'm hanging by a thread in my head,Same damn weight when I get outta bed,No clear answers, no st
