It's like there's a huge hole where my heart used to be
And now the blood drips and paints pictures of what used to be
What could have been
Time heals all wounds
The deepest cuts
And even the worst burns
But this pain just makes me ill
Makes me want to just crawl in a hole
I just want to be emotionally close to someone
But it's when they break away that takes me under and devastates me
It feels as though the darkest depths of hell have consumed me
And won't let me break free
Cause there's nowhere for me to turn to
Nowhere for me left for me to go
The road has finally taken me to my end
32 stitches, 59 staples that run up my arms
Reminds me of the pain you caused me to feel
It shows a different side of me
A side that you're not even aware of
Because I can't tell you
Cause I know you wouldn't understand
But at the same time
You don't deserve to know
You may have been the reason why I felt that way
But you don't care about my feelings
So right now you can't know
I'm doing all I can to help myself
Cause I want to get better
And I don't want to keep feeling this way
To me I feel like I'm bouncing back
To who I really want to be
Instead of the person you try to make me be
And since I have so many people there for me
In a way you could never be
I don't know how to even talk to you
In a way that won't hurt me
Because you don't listen to me when I really want to talk
You both just yell at me
Saying things like that's life and get over it
But if it was that easy to do
Don't you think I would
So that's why I am this way
Scarred up from head to toe
Always afraid to let it show
Feeling like I need to hide away
Welcome to my bitter ending
