His Ghost

Yeah… (yeah, yeah)

Rest easy, Grandpa…

Damn… I don’t know how to do this without you…

(woah)

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Since you left, my whole world went quiet (so quiet)

But my mind too loud, startin’ riots (damn)

Tryna be strong like you told me to

But I’m breakin’ down, I ain’t bulletproof

I don’t trust nobody, people switch so quick (fake)

Smiles in my face but it don’t mean shit (nah)

Grief in my chest like a stone in my lungs

Can’t even breathe when the memories come

You was the voice that would calm my storms

Now I’m stuck in the rain with no warmth

I keep hearin’ your laugh in the back of my head

Then reality hits — yeah, you really dead

And I hate that I’m here, still livin’ this life

While you up in the sky, outta reach tonight

(Ad-libs: “yeah…” “damn…” “why me?”)

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[Hook – 0:56–1:20] (Rap-able, Juice-style)

Who the hell do I call when I’m losin’ my mind? (who?)

Demons in my head, they don’t give me no time (damn)

Lost my grandpa, now my soul feel cold (so cold)

Tryna act okay, but I’m not that strong (nah)

I don’t know who to trust, I don’t know what to say

I just smile through the pain while I fade away

I’m fightin’ myself, yeah, I’m losin’ control

Tell me how the fuck do I save my soul?

(Ad-libs: “woah…” “help me…” “yeah, yeah”)

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I been drownin’ in my thoughts, it’s a deep end (deep end)

Tryna talk to somebody but I don’t know where to begin

They say “time heals,” but that shit feel slow

Some days I’m okay, then I hit real low

I miss the way you’d tell me “keep your head up”

Now I’m tryna do it, but I’m fed up

I got anger in my blood, got tears I hide

Late nights starin’ at the ceiling, askin’ why

Why the good ones gotta go so soon?

Now my heart feel empty like an open wound

And I don’t wanna burden nobody with this

So I sit with my demons and I clench my fist

I’m tryna stay clean, tryna stay alive

But grief got me barely survivin’ inside

Who the hell do I call when I’m losin’ my mind? (who?)

Demons in my head, they don’t give me no time (damn)

Lost my grandpa, now my soul feel cold (so cold)

Tryna act okay, but I’m not that strong (nah)

I don’t know who to trust, I don’t know what to say

I just smile through the pain while I fade away

I’m fightin’ myself, yeah, I’m losin’ control

Tell me how the fuck do I save my soul?

[Bridge – 2:31–2:50] (Melodic breakdown)

Grandpa, if you hear me, I’m still tryin’… (still tryin’)

But I’m broken inside and I’m tired of fightin’… (so tired)

I just want peace, I just wanna breathe…

But these demons won’t let go of me…

So I talk to the sky like you on the phone

Hopin’ you can guide me when I feel alone

I ain’t okay, but I’m still standin’ somehow

Tryna make you proud, even when I don’t know how

And maybe one day this pain won’t sting

But right now it’s heavy, it’s everything

Rest easy, Grandpa… you my guardian angel

I’ll keep fightin’ these demons… even when it’s painful