Only a Pen when I fall

[Guitar Solo]

[Intro]
lately i feel trapped against the wall 
and no one cares so who can i call 
there’s only a pen when i fall               
ones upon a time i was happy 
but  now i barely am at all 

i’m back at the nightstand 
still got a bottle in my right hand
now i’m at the club drinking 
cause fuck a fight man 
i remember when you said i would be alright and 
now i would rather drowning liquor 
by the pint man 
smoking and popping pills 
just to feel alive again
and pop a few more 
just to get a high again 
smoking every day 
cause it’s one of the only way
to take my pain away
you say it changed me 
well fake is real anyway 
people fade away 
like they said they would never stay 
my own family don’t know me 
but i think it’s better that way 
know one really knows what i feel 
i say i’m happy 
but that dream is’t real
so i smoke again to get away 
from my feels 
i been alone so long 
keeping my feelings locked up is just how i deal 

lately i feel trapped against the wall 
and no one cares so who can i call 
there’s only a pen when i fall                 
ones upon a time i was happy 
but  now i barely am at all 

lately 
i been stuck in my head daily 
been trying to get away 
well can you save me 
i’m sick of waking up feeling hazy 
give me enough pills i will fly like a daisy 
end all my pain 
i been about cry to much lately 
bottled up i feel insane 
feeling like i’m going to die
 well maybe 
take a bullet to the brain 
idk i just need to end all this pain 
i’m all alone at the end of my lane
no one cares 
well i feel the same 
maybe god is the fucked up one 
playing with me 
in these mind games 
i’m tripping 
maybe i really am insane 
or just broken from all the pain 
i feel empty inside 
i’m wondering if anyone feels the same 
i don’t want to die 
i just want to end my pain 
becoming numb inside 
just a man trying to maintain 
only got pen to express my pain 

lately i feel trapped against the wall 
and no one cares so who can i call 
there’s only a pen when i fall                 
ones upon a time i was happy 
but  now i barely am at all 


[Guitar Solo]

Hard Rock,pop rock female vocals