Lost Boy

i woke up today ,

and just like every other day

i dreamed we were in a garden

told you i love you

but that’s just were the dream started

now i lie awake inside of my head

trying to find a path

we’re i don’t end up dead

im just a lost boy

hanging by a thread

pouring my sole out

like it’s the last line i read

its been some time,

your never looking behind

ik you never find me crossing your mind

But I'd be lying if you didn't cross mine

Looking at our old pictures online

post depression quotes and say i’m fine

From time to time I see you and

Wish you were still mine

but i’m not fine

I'm been working trying

To get you to be mine again

maybe just give it some time

just a lost boy saying he’s fine

well i’m braking in time

writing rhymes

depressed And stressed

I still got all our old text

read them and turn into a god damn mess

Wishing I could rest wake up and

Not be depressed

Wish

This was just a dream

And I would wake up

With a text from you

saying you miss me

instead your probably just dissing me

i’m lost and can’t find my way

but just like every other day

i dreamed we were in a garden

told you i love you

but that’s just were the dream started

can You can hear the pain in my sound

can you hear the tears falling down

step back and take a look at me now

i’m a mess

ever since you left

the scars i have aren’t anything

like the pain in my chest

sitting here depressed

Wondering what will go wrong next

Sitting here like how will I fuck up next

I remember why you were the best

Now look at me I'm a mess

Maybe this is just a test

hope it is

Because your are everything and I want you back

But right now I just continue to rap

And every evening I continue to bash

Everything against the wall

I broke everything

And then I lost it all

just because i was controlling

i remember the late nights we went bowling

i remember the night at the beach

when you said we need to take a brake

what i did that night was a fucking mistake

open my chest, look no spine

My profile pic

and these lyrics I've been hiding behind

depression quotes is all i post online

damn I'm felling ill

I need to take a pill

To relieve the pain

I fell like I'm going insane

Everyone who said they cared isn't there, now I'm confused

Broken and bruised,

what haunts me is

i’m the reason i don’t have you

few weeks into a brake

i was lonely don’t you see

and you weren’t even texting me

but you still cared

but i didn’t see

i should of waited longer

and it still haunts me

don't you see

Your still my everything

and I still love you

i woke up today ,

and just like every other day

i dreamed we were in a garden

told you i love you

but that’s just were the dream started