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I stay wasted , so I don't feel a thing

I'd rather deal wit' it the next day than feel a thing. Keep telling myself I'll be ok. Keep smiling but this smile don't show my pain.

Try to find another way, to just escape and fly away.

But I close my eyes and I can't seem to to rid all these thoughts inside my brain.

I'm a bad bitch with some issues I can't seem to solve

Always end up hurtin' anyone who get involved

And I try so hard to change ,but it's hard for me to be something I'm not. But who am I . I think I forgot.. I'm sick of being who I am I fuck myself over time and time again. It's hard to find a man who understands how I am. I'm hard on the surface but not all the way through. I've never been perfect , but neither have you.. I'm a down ass bitch and fresh as fuck. . .but that never seems to be enough. Always surrounded by people yet feel so alone. Trying to make sense of where I went wrong. . So I take a toke of this blunt , hold my middle finger up, saying FUCK LOVE. LOVE LIES to me every God damn time. Can't seem to get it right . Love has never done me right . Love lies love lies to me .every God damn time. So I'm going back to my old ways. Where feelings don't get in my way. Mother fuckers move out my way. That's all I gotta fucking say I'm a down ass bitch , wait till you meet the next me.