Crystal

If only I knew that our time would be so brief,

Spoiled you rotten I would have done.

If only I knew that would be our last phone call,

Just to listen to you speak, held on longer I would have done.

If only I knew that would be your last text,

Kept it in my inbox I would have done.

If only I knew it was the last time I was seeing you,

Called you back and hugged you tight I would have done.

If only I knew it was the last time I would see you smile,

Stood longer and watch you smile I would have done.

If only I knew that I was seeing your face for the last time,

Memorize all its features I would have done.

If only I knew that God would take you away so soon,

Spend all my time with you I would have done.

There are a lot of things I would have done differently

If only I had known.

It's July your birthday month. . I hate crying it's something I rarely do. Except in July that's the month I cry because of you. There is some i cry sad tears, some mad tears I never got to say good bye face to face and let You know you know how much you meant and I wish I woukd ov spent MORE time with you. Some days are happy tears telling a story about. Or when I see how grown zoe is and how much of you is in her..

Or I cry because I'm a girl who missing her big sister. Happy birthday Crystal your sister missing you.