Soft Focus Heart

I counted cracks in the ceiling

tried to count myself in

I wrote your name on every page

but tore it up again

You weren’t here

and I lost my map

I whispered to the empty rooms

no one answered back

I did stupid things

just to feel something at all

I traced the scars on my arms

like they were lines in a story I couldn’t tell

I touched the pain

just to see if it stayed

Everything I did

felt like burning daylight

I scribbled thoughts

notes I folded tight into my pocket

I was breaking

breaking in silence

My heart in pieces

trying to hold myself

Hallways empty

I walked like a ghost

The echoes of laughter

they weren’t mine to follow

I traced the ink on my notebook

every word a small confession

Nothing tasted real

but I kept moving

I just wanted you here

Wanted the world to pause

I pressed my pen into the page

tried to capture a moment of you

My body, my mistakes

they whispered too loud

I counted every heartbeat

like it could fix the holes in me

Still breathing

still here

Empty hallways

empty me

I wrote it all down

so maybe someday I’d remember

remember who I was