[Verse 1]
Knee on the floor
Forehead to wood
Mouthed all the prayers
Thought I understood
Every "amen"
Tattooed on my tongue
Now it tastes like rust
Where it used to burn
[Pre-Chorus]
Are You there?
Or just the echo I named You?
Are You kind
Or just the sky I drew?
[Chorus]
I was Your faithful servant
Bled out every word I learned
Built my life like a tower
But You watched it burn
If this is how You love me
Why does it feel like war?
Are You the one who’s holy
Or the hand that shut the door?
I’m screaming at the ceiling
Do You hear me anymore?
[Verse 2]
All of the stories
Glow-in-the-dark saints
Smiles in the hallway
Covering the cracks in the paint
Said "take up your cross"
So I carried it proud
Till it broke my back
And You stayed in the clouds
[Pre-Chorus]
If You’re good
Why am I breaking in pieces?
If You’re close
Why does Your silence increase this?
[Chorus]
I was Your faithful servant
Bled out every word I learned
Built my life like a tower
But You watched it burn
If this is how You love me
Why does it feel like war?
Are You the one who’s holy
Or the hand that shut the door?
I’m screaming at the ceiling
Do You hear me anymore?
[Bridge]
[clean vocal
Then screams answer]
Did I just love the script
More than I loved the truth? (tell me)
Was I in love with praise
More than I trusted You? (coward)
You said You’d never leave
Then You turned into a ghost (where are You?)
If this is what faith is
Why am I here alone?
[screams]
WHERE WERE YOU
WHEN I BROKE?
WAS IT ME
YOU LET CHOKE?
DID YOU WRITE
EVERY LIE THAT THEY SPOKE?
AM I JUST
ANOTHER JOKE?
[Chorus]
I was Your faithful servant
Now I’m standing in the ash
Every verse that I memorized
Crumbling like glass
If this is how You love me
Maybe I need more
Than thunder in the distance
And another closed door
I’m screaming at the silence
(I don’t know You anymore)
[Outro]
One last whisper
Caught in my throat
"If You’re still there
You can have what’s left of this hope"