First love

You were the first one I let past my guard,

Said my family hated me, tore us apart.

Told me we had to stop talking, so I bled in the dark,

Few months later you came back, tried to reignite the spark.

Reeled me in like you’d never left my side,

I believed every word, thought the hurt had died.

But you left me again, same cold goodbye,

And I fell for it twice, still don’t know why.

’Cause I believed in you when I had no one,

Even when the damage was already done.

Red flags waving but I closed my eyes,

Love turned to prison, still I’d serve the time.

You broke me down, left me hollow inside,

But if you called right now, I’d still try.

Yeah, I’d still try…

When my best friend passed, you whispered we were meant to be,

Said they wanted us together, so you leaned on me.

But you were cheating the whole time, playing your game,

And I took every lie, wore the weight, felt the shame.

I went deep in my head, couldn’t find my way out,

Felt so damn alone, drowning in doubt.

And the sickest part is, knowing all I know,

If you said “let’s try,” I might still not say no.

Yeah, I know I had my faults too, I won’t lie,

When I got frustrated, I’d close up inside.

Never good at speaking what was heavy on my chest,

But I bit back fights, always tried my best.

Didn’t wanna argue, just wanted us to grow,

Move forward through the pain, but you’d always let go.

Every time we hit a storm, you’d turn and run,

I stayed in the rain, praying we’d see the sun.

’Cause I believed in you when I had no one,

Even when the damage was already done.

Red flags waving but I closed my eyes,

Love turned to prison, still I’d serve the time.

You broke me down, left me hollow inside,

But if you called right now, I’d still try.

Yeah, I’d still try…

You tried to control me, hold me on a chain,

Every fight felt the same, just a different name.

I thought love could heal, thought it could change,

But it’s the same script playing in a different frame.

Every “I’m sorry” came with a plan,

To pull me back in just to watch me crash again.

I kept my hope lit in the coldest storm,

Thinking maybe this time, we’d keep each other warm.

Maybe I’m a fool or maybe I’m just scarred,

But you’re the first I let close to my heart.

And even if the ending’s always the same,

Part of me would still play your game.

’Cause some wounds heal, but some don’t fade,

And love’s the one drug I can’t walk away