[Intro][DnB trap][emo trap dark rave layers][hip hop gangsta dnb][catchy melodic tune][triple kick sub bassline][repetitive beatpad vamp][swag vocal adlib]
[melodic gothic undertone]
[Smoky haunting female][massive hall reverb]
(Just remember) all the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one
Instead just do better - from now on
[Full trap dnb][established strong trap beat]
[Verse 1][UK accent smoky female rap][clever timing][UK trap story rap][pitch bent fx][DnB gangsta]
One day when cutting my sons hair
We start talkin bout past years
he looked at me
& said "Thank you Mum, love you"
[Dramatic pause] instant tears
So I decide to apologize
For all the times
I'd failed him
But he replied, nah mum
its all good cos you gave me freedom
To be myself no matter what
& not
just for me
but
for all 3 of us
That felt so amazing
Hearin my son
Say thanks for how I raised them
But just as quick
Pride turns to guilt for the bits I did so shit
[Softly][haunting suspense]
I know that I tried
But it doesn't stop how I feel inside
[Hook][smoky haunting female][catchy melodic][gangsta swag]
I wish I could go back, & show up the way I know now I should
But instead I just gotta hope they know I did what I could
The shame, the guilt, I wasn't there
I wasnt good
If a chance came to take it all back you know that I would - if I could
[Verse 2][UK smoky female][chopped rhythmic trap rap vocal]
memories when you left them alone
When they needed you there
& you were nowhere
- you know
you fucked up, you dissappeared
Weren't there when they felt afraid
All the other mistakes you made
The childhood shit that imprints the brain
Are adult footprints that can be retrained
It better late than never
Todays a new day so just remember
All the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one
All I can do is just do better from now on
[Bridge][transitional flow][slow tempo][daramtic crescendo][quick trap rap]
Cos its not how you fall
That ends up hurting
Its how you rise from the ashes
While burning
Did you leave them forever
Or did you come back
Did you give up or try
Get back on track
let go of the past guilt
The shame & all your self hate
& let all the shoulda coulda woulda's
Melt away
I didnt know back then what i do today
& thats ok
[Soften][heartfelt]
(Cos)
All the shoulda coulda woulda's help no one
All I can do is just do better from now on
[Interlude]
[Orchestral layered crescendo][catchy vamp][Epic intensity]
[Final hook]
Wanna go back & show up, the way I know now I should
I hope they know I did what I could
The shame the guilt I wasnt there I wasnt good
If a chance to take it all back came
you know that I would - if I could
[Outro][trap d&b layers][adlib][heartfelt UK rap][big finish]
Childhood imprints the brain
Adult life retrains
Past mistakes
cant go back & change
Todays a new day
Step up its never too late
Its not the fall but the rise
That makes
The shoulda coulda woulda's
Go away
& now you know better
Its ok to just say
Thanks son I love you too
& thats all you gotta do