[Verse 1]
You say
"I'm here"
I hear
"I'm leaving"
Every promise
Feels like a joke
You touch my hand
My chest starts screaming
Every soft word
Scratches old ghosts
[Pre-Chorus]
You’re reaching out while I’m reaching for armor
You call my name
I just get quieter
[Chorus]
I don’t know how to let you love me
Every time you get close
I run
You hold your hands up like you’re harmless
But I’ve only known the loaded gun
Teach me how to stay
When every nerve says "walk away"
I don’t know how to let you love me
But I’m so tired of pushing you away
[Verse 2]
You bring me tea
In my chipped mug
Laugh at stories
I’ve never told
You say I’m brave
For just showing up
I say
"You’d leave
If you saw it all"
[Pre-Chorus]
Your steady eyes meet the cracks I keep hidden
You call it art
I just call it damage
[Chorus]
I don’t know how to let you love me
Every time you get close
I drown
You build a home out of these pieces
I brace myself for it falling down
Teach me how to stay
When every bone says "run away"
I don’t know how to let you love me
But I’m so tired of throwing you away
[Bridge]
What if I try
And still disappoint you? (oh)
What if you stay
And I have to trust you?
You take my shaking fingers
Fold them into yours
Say
"You don’t have to fix it
To be worth fighting for"
[Chorus]
I don’t know how to let you love me
But I’m scared of a life you’re not in
If I open this door just a little
Could that be where it all begins?
Teach me how to stay
When every fear screams "turn away"
I don’t know how to let you love me
So I’ll start by not pushing you away