I wake up to silence, it’s louder than screams
Got memories hauntin’ me deep in my dreams
Look in the mirror, don’t know who I see
Used to be hopeful, now I barely believe
Family don’t call, friends all gone
Act like they cared, but they left me alone
I built up a wall, can’t let no one in
’Cause love always hurt me more than my sins
Pain on my chest, but I smile like it’s fine
Bleedin’ inside while I’m tellin’ ’em lies
They say “stay strong,” but they don’t feel this weight
Tryna heal wounds that don’t ever relate
I’m trapped in a world that forgot how to care
Screamin’ for help but nobody there
Drownin’ in pain that I can’t define
Just tryna outrun the shadows in my mind
They don’t know the nights I been cold, I been broke
Cryin’ in the dark while I’m gaspin’ for hope
Said I was changin’, but still feel the same
The past got a grip and it’s holdin’ my name
Used to be high just to numb out the lows
Now I’m just clean but I’m fightin’ alone
This ain’t a story of glory or fame
It’s about survival while drownin’ in shame
Walkin’ through fire just hopin’ I burn
Lessons I learned, they were never your concern
They love you when you smile, hate you when you break
But I’m still here, every breath that I take
I’m trapped in a world that forgot how to care
Screamin’ for help but nobody there
Drownin’ in pain that I can’t define
Just tryna outrun the shadows in my mind
They said time heals, but the clock froze
Still hear the echoes of the doors closed
I’m still searchin’ for a light I can’t find
Lost in the maze of a tortured mind
But I won’t fold, I been through worse
Even when it hurts, I put it in a verse
This my truth, my pain, my fight
Still writin’ rhymes just to make it through the night
skylerburton