You Still Found Me

My mind’s a room with the lights flickering

High highs, low lows, can’t tell what I’m feeling

Some days I’m fire, some days I’m numb

I make promises I can’t outrun

I’ve loved too loud, I’ve burned too fast

Built my own storms, then prayed they’d pass

I’ve been my worst enemy, hands on the wheel

Crashing my heart just to see if I feel

Pre-Chorus

I wore my wounds like I earned them

Called survival “being strong”

But I was bleeding in silence

Trying to fix what was wrong

Chorus

I’m unsteady, I’m broken, I’m learning my name

I caused my own chaos, I fed my own pain

But Jesus stepped in when I couldn’t be found

Loved me steady while my world spun around

Yeah I’m messy, complicated, a walking war

But He never flinched when He saw my scars

I didn’t find Him when I got it together

He found me right here, in the storm, in the weather

Verse 2

I talk to God in the middle of spirals

With mascara tears and unanswered titles

I say “I’m fine” when I’m barely okay

Then laugh too loud just to keep it away

I know the patterns, I know the signs

Still fall back into the same old fights

I’ve hurt myself more than anyone else

Still He calls me His, not someone else

Pre-Chorus

I tried to outrun my reflection

Tried to drown out the noise

But mercy was louder

Than all of my choices

Chorus

I’m unsteady, I’m honest, I’m tired, I’m real

I’ve wrecked my own heart trying not to feel

But Jesus stayed close when I pushed Him away

Held me through nights I didn’t think I’d survive

Yeah I’m faith and fear in the very same breath

Hope in my hands, anxiety in my chest

I didn’t heal before He loved me

He loved me first—and that’s what healed me

Bridge

He met me in the spinning

He sat with me in the lows

He didn’t ask me to be stable

He just asked me to come close

When my thoughts turned violent

When shame screamed the loudest

Grace spoke softer—but stronger

And somehow I still heard it

I’m not fixed, I’m forgiven

I’m not calm, but I’m known

I’m still learning how to live here

But I’m not doing it alone

Outro

So if my worship shakes and my faith feels wild

If my praise sounds like a cry, not a smile

Just know—He understands

He found me like this…

And He still calls me His.