Used To

[Intro]
(Yeah… lights off, walls closin’ in)
Been stuck in the same room so long the air taste like regret
Scared to open the door, scared of who might walk in next

[Hook]
You don’t like my music cause you don’t like what I’ve been through
Then baby please take me away from what I know and show me what’s new
Why don’t I feel anything when I look down from this building, it should be a scary view
I really want to jump but I’m scared I’ll cave in to what I’m used to
(uh… yeah)

[Verse 1]
I built these walls brick by brick from every person that left
Now every new face look like a threat I ain’t ready to test
You reach for my hand and I flinch like the touch gon’ burn
’Cause the last ones I let close taught me love is a lesson I never learn
Change feel like free-fall, comfort feel like a cage
I’m dyin’ slow in the familiar but the unknown got me afraid
I hear the world callin’, soft voice sayin’ “just try”
But my chest tight as hell every time I even think about sayin’ goodbye
To the pain I know, the routine that keep me numb
I’d rather stay broken than risk gettin’ fixed by someone

[Hook]
You don’t like my music cause you don’t like what I’ve been through
Then baby please take me away from what I know and show me what’s new
Why don’t I feel anything when I look down from this building, it should be a scary view
I really want to jump but I’m scared I’ll cave in to what I’m used to
(scared… damn)

[Verse 2]
It’s tearin’ me apart, half of me starvin’ for new
Other half clutchin’ the old like it’s the only thing true
I push you away before you can even get close
’Cause if I let you in and you leave, I don’t think I could cope
Every “maybe later” is just fear wearin’ a mask
I’m terrified of the future and haunted by the past
I stare at the ledge and feel nothin’ but static inside
Want the freefall so bad but the landing might cost me my pride
So I stay on the edge, frozen, lungs full of doubt
Knowin’ this comfort is killin’ me slow while I’m too scared to get out

[Hook]
You don’t like my music cause you don’t like what I’ve been through
Then baby please take me away from what I know and show me what’s new
Why don’t I feel anything when I look down from this building, it should be a scary view
I really want to jump but I’m scared I’ll cave in to what I’m used to
(yeah… please)

[Outro](soft)
Still standin’ here… still scared of the new
Still holdin’ the same weight I never asked you to
If you gon’ take me away… just promise you stay
’Cause I’m tired of jumpin’ alone… and landin’ the same way
(yeah…)