my brain is mess, and im feeling so depressed
i feel like im a guest, can't breathe, im not impressed
i dont know where to turn
and the whole world starts to burn
I'm not a phoenix, i cant return
and I can't
i can't even hold myself
im falling through the cracks, i just can't control my doubts
All i see is what i lack
blink the tears back
They sting like acid drops
Im not acting, no props
dont try to take my hand
you'll never understand
I'll only drag down
Dont look at me like that,
i hate to see you frown
I can't even hold myself
I never knew I'd feel this alone
even with all the contacts in my phone
I can't call them to explain
I'm feeling so much pain
i feel so ashamed
I feel so ashamed (so insane)
Can't be saved. This is the conclusion I've got to
All of these years trying and pushing myself through
My body and mind are tired
37 years old, and I'm retired
No good for any work
my limbs just twitch and jerk
I look like an addict
my thoughts mixed and sporadic
I'm standing on this ledge
Getting closer to the edge
If i fall, I won't rise
I just close my eyes
And then....
I can't even hold myself
so ashamed, can't be tamed
i tried so hard, but im still ripping apart
And i can't even save myself
No, i can't even save myself
I never knew I'd feel this alone
even with all the contacts in my phone
I can't call them to explain
I'm feeling so much pain
i feel so ashamed
I feel so ashamed (so insane)