I Can't

my brain is mess, and im feeling so depressed

i feel like im a guest, can't breathe, im not impressed

i dont know where to turn

and the whole world starts to burn

I'm not a phoenix, i cant return

and I can't

i can't even hold myself

im falling through the cracks, i just can't control my doubts

All i see is what i lack

blink the tears back

They sting like acid drops

Im not acting, no props

dont try to take my hand

you'll never understand

I'll only drag down

Dont look at me like that,

i hate to see you frown

I can't even hold myself

I never knew I'd feel this alone

even with all the contacts in my phone

I can't call them to explain

I'm feeling so much pain

i feel so ashamed

I feel so ashamed (so insane)

Can't be saved. This is the conclusion I've got to

All of these years trying and pushing myself through

My body and mind are tired

37 years old, and I'm retired

No good for any work

my limbs just twitch and jerk

I look like an addict

my thoughts mixed and sporadic

I'm standing on this ledge

Getting closer to the edge

If i fall, I won't rise

I just close my eyes

And then....

I can't even hold myself

so ashamed, can't be tamed

i tried so hard, but im still ripping apart

And i can't even save myself

No, i can't even save myself

I never knew I'd feel this alone

even with all the contacts in my phone

I can't call them to explain

I'm feeling so much pain

i feel so ashamed

I feel so ashamed (so insane)