Minefields by Tilla Sonrise

It's like I'm sitting in the waiting room
Waiting for the doctor to tell me I've died
No one ever told me trying to make it
Would take the whole of your life
Leaving holes in your life
Always feeling incomplete like how whole is your life
The many burdens you've endured
Everything you had to sacrifice
I know no one ever said life would be nice
If I was presented with a choice
No way in he'll would I do this twice
I'd rather be a bird or a butterfly
Never asking why we got to die
Trapped in the skin of men 
Not talking skin sentiments
Just the worry 
The grime
The struggle
The hurry
The crime
The trouble
Trapped in this endless 
Bursting bubble
Like doors slammed in your face
Or cats saying I got you but wanna make you wait
Striving for perfection in a world full of mistakes 
The reality of your poverty
The only reason men strive to be great
Don't wanna be left behind
But how many of us
Haven't even lost
But have left our minds
Behind
Chasing the grind
On tic toc
Chasing time
Like hip hop
Chasing rhymes 
Hold on yall 
Got another call
I think it's my mind
Hello
Yeah it's me
Get to work
Quit wasting time
Everytime you cry you're dripping mind
Like lines
Triple entendre
Tripping lines 
A Eye human 
Crossover
Tripping minds 
They got the world hallucinating 
Like Tripping minds
Boom goes the battlefield Tripping minds
Beautiful this endless field 
God is here 
Where am I
"Doctor Doctor? What's wrong with my child?
Mama don't cry
My soul has gone to Heaven but my body has died"
It's Pookie at 9
Tilla Sonrise peace
Don't cry for me
When I'm not here
Save your tears---    for rivers---
Did my best
When I was here 
In a world that 
Called----
me a ninja
Don't cry for me
When I'm not here
Save your tears---    for rivers---
Did my best
When I was here 
In a world that 
Called----
 me a ninja
The mountains will mourn me
The rivers will cry
Volcanoes will erupt the day that I die
Hurricanes won't pass you by
Look you straight in the eye
Twist you in tornadoes
Sing you a Tsunami lullaby 
Best to hope for melanin if not
You're about to Sun fry
Wake and bake
My mental state
I speak beyond the future
I elevate with He who Creates
Only skin needs kama sutra
"Every time I get out they keep pulling me back in"
"Please excuse the crudity of the model"
God is sending me
Back from the future
Gotta be 
the Writer
The artist
The actor
The director
Main character
The extra
The viewer and
Producer
Sent back with a message
That's a lesson
In death you understand that life is a blessing
Ask eye vers son
You can't have
The Answer
Until you understand the Question
Down to the foundation Recking 
Always see and be the
The bigger picture 
Rather they call you
God or ninja
Don't let the hate linger
Humble your middle finger
This time leave a legacy that God remembers
Don't cry for me
When I'm not here
Save your tears---    for rivers---
Did my best
When I was here 
In a world that 
Called----
 me a ninja
Don't cry for me
When I'm not here
Save your tears-
Tilla Sonrise Peace

Soul blues Funk