I’m just trying to do my thing why you gotta bring all that drama Fuck OPPS just keeping it 100 i’m trying to keep my mind at peace so many problems. I can’t even sleep trying to stay positive, but I can’t because there’s a stupid little voice in the back of my head telling me it’s over why do you even exist get the fuck out of the back of my head and let me just sit I just wanna see what is happy. I just wanna feel what is real life yeah . Dont I deserve some type of healing some type of chilling.
I don’t smoke. I don’t drink. All I do is think back when when I did, I lost all my brain cells. My life was a living Hell I didn’t know oh well but I now do so im learning appreciating of what I have left so my mind can rest .no since I realize that so forever I’ll be grateful always gonna be doing the right thing to try to be me the real Me not the one that was hiding behind mask. All I cared was about that blast after the hit I had so I left all that in the past that’s all it was doing is keeping me back. I wish I knew what I did now the toughest lesson ever learned. Damn, I hate it, but I love it because I got to learn from it thinking everything in a positive mindset make you feel all right yeah but always getting attacked by that anxiety attack. I don’t know how to control it. All I know is that I get them cold sweats and shaking and about to faint and once it’s gone, it’s like I was born all over and I get another chance to feel great and i won’t stop until that uncontrollable anxiety attack comes back and I hate that, still I love it cause of all the mistakes that I did, that’s why accept them and if I’m tired, the hallucinations come all I see is people dying on the side of the road why do I keep on seeing that? It just makes me pay more attention to what’s in front of me now I don’t wanna lie . I don’t wanna die. I wanna be show everyone the positiveity of me not the bad but still I can’t control the inevitable but forever I’ll be trying to be free no more mistakes no more mistakes I want to keep them far away. I always gotta think twice even three times before I pick what I’m gonna do and not waste the little timei have left of life . i’m always ready to fly glide or take a ride to relax my mind. Something that you gotta do because if not, you go insane without relaxation you overwork your brain and you bring the pain uncontrollable pain block you from correct actions and makes you strange. I don’t wanna play that game. I just wanna be normal. And No-one can opp of me anymore. Now Whatever was in the past goodbye. See you later. I’m here to do things better and I’ll never stop because I only got one life to live if I live it stupid what’s the point of it?
OSODRAC