Real love

I can't take another heartbreak. I've had so many. Each time I felt that I would never feel any other way . I don't love many. Everytime I try I get disappointed again. I love with all of me. I give too much. After a few breaks fear became real. Never want to go through it again. The pain goes so deep.

I cried so much blamed myself for your actions thinking that I wasn't good enough. But it was you that wasn't enough. You just kept thinking you didn't do wrong. Trying to try again has been so hard .I don't think I'll ever trust another again. I created walls to protect my heart. No more heartbreak for me needed. I don't know how to let someone in anymore. I always choose the one who will hurt me. My body is all they want.

There is more than me then that I'm smart funny loyol I'm the greatest .I feel and I care for real. Why can you be okay with yourself. I don't think you know how to care or how to truly love anyone but you. We could have been happy together. Will I ever know love again. I had it once I hope someday to have it again. It's been lonely since you left this world. Trying is to hard. Atleast I had real love once.