Ashes in my hands

Verse 1 –

How could it be…

you were my sacred place, my quiet sea.

The only home that felt like peace,

your voice a song, your smile like sweet release.

And when you looked at me that way,

those crystal eyes lit up the day.

I felt I finally fit, alive,

and when you kissed me, time didn’t survive.

Your laugh was gold, your joy a flame,

I knew right then: love or my biggest pain.

Every touch, a spark that froze,

every word, a secret rose.

Verse 2 -

I was your ally in the dark,

kept your secrets, every mark.

You gave me love, I gave my all,

then suddenly I hit the wall.

You chose alone — I had no say,

your secret flame just walked away.

No calls, no words, I didn’t exist,

your closeness gone, I’d been dismissed.

And yet I tried to hold your gaze,

to catch your smile through the haze.

But everything I thought was ours

was slipping like cold fallen stars.

Verse 3 –

I held that boat, kept it afloat,

but what closeness? Just empty notes.

I tried to speak, to make you see,

you laughed it off, dismissed me.

Once, twice, I tried again,

the third time, I said, “No, I can’t.”

That dagger I gave, now in my back,

pretending nothing, I lost track.

My hands shook as I held my shame,

still hoping you’d light my flame.

But every day, the fire burned low,

the warmth I sought, you’d never show.

Verse 4 –

Checking if you’re online, hoping near,

each day less love, replaced by fear.

Why hold ashes in my hands,

that slip like sand, that burn like brands?

I tried to save what you destroyed,

my fingers blistered, my heart annoyed.

I let it go, began to heal,

but still I wonder, was it real?

Do you think of me at all?

Or did you leave, indifferent, cold as ice?

I mirrored your silence, your quiet disdain,

hoped for your warmth, only to feel pain.

Collapsed Connection / Pre-Bridge

Despite the pain, I tried to stay,

for tiny words you’d throw my way.

“Don’t let it get too close,” you said,

it burned inside my aching head.

Days turned slow, seconds stretched to pain,

I mirrored you, felt my hope wane.

You were the queen, I a pawn,

but still I hoped for a new dawn.

I stopped holding on so tight,

why fight for someone who won’t fight?

You told me once you loved me true,

I saw the truth… or was it your second view?

Every night I replay your smile,

every echo stretched a mile.

And yet the silence screams your name,

I can’t escape this cruel game.

Hook / Refrain-

You let me burn, you let me break,

turned every promise into smoke you made.

You left me cold, you walked away —

but I still feel you in my veins, okay?

You let me burn, you let me fall,

and now I’m learning how to breathe at all.

You froze my heart, you turned to ice —

guess I was never worth the price.

Bridge

I swear you loved the way I bled,

kept the crown inside my head.

You watched me beg, you watched me drown,

while you stood there and smiled it down

I held the fire , held the pain,

You lit the match and walked away.

You say I’m strong-but you’re the flame, and you still burn inside my brain.