She’s in her late 20s now she’s standing in the mirrors, glazing and looking and everything. She’s wondering why her life feel the way she do. She’s addicted to the way she don’t understand. She got pregnant overtime now she had to sober up. Can’t keep the weed in her system that she realized the reason of her smoking all the time darkness that she thought she hidden and finally come to the light is starting to unlock. She remember the night before she was even 6 somebody on top of her body, forcing themself, and si much pain but yet only can’t remember this words don’t tell nobody, nobody will believe you and by the time she was 12 she was always confused. She didn’t realize the sex was what you call it. She was so like up her head she didn’t know the trauma. She didn’t know what she went through and she was just so so far gone in La La Land. People looked at the hub and said this girl is crazy. This girl is slow but they didn’t understand she told herself she talked to her stuff and stay quiet get out the way that she won’t have a problem now all to make her turn to our overthinking and she lay so many nights and days and pray, and hope that her child she carried her woman would never ever feel the same way that she felt she protected by any means from the time getting enough to Tom’s getting low. She don’t understand that everybody around you is not evil but she also don’t understand why world is so evil that she’s so kind but heart is so cold if she’s slow, she slow and steady. She’s so quick to give him when she ain’t got it but yeah, her mouth is so smart and she’s so aggressive and over powerful than men think she’s better than them, but it’s not that it’s just that she ever opened up to a man again I feel like she’s a kid again. She feel like a child she don’t understand about his homosexual she don’t get it everybody in and out, but her body is still not pleased. She’s still from Dick Dixon, no orgasm, cause her body cannot hear from the pain and mentioned it to her not just heard a child at her so every time she looking in the mirror, she tried to protect the little girl that she keeps saying that little girl is gone now you were a grown woman it’s time for you to warm up but yet she just wanna heal apart to hug a little girl that she could not hug no longer and yet she’s looking around looking for a mother other mother is no longer. Yeah she’s laying on the side bath she’s she’s laying she’s laying in the ground right beside her sister and her niece and the world is so fucked up. She don’t understand it yet. She keeps seeing God God want me give me a reason. God gave her a ticket out and she came right.L so scared she was uncomfortable but now she’s begging again like God please don’t leave God I don’t know. Please help me but all again on the girl one not even a little girl all the woman want is to be loved to have a family.
