Waiting Room At The Edge

[Verse 1]
Floor cold
Back to the door in my room
Phone off
Got a note folded up by my shoes
All black
Been rehearsin' this ending for weeks
Heart loud
You could probably hear it out in the street
Search bar glowin', I was lookin' up ways
Like, "If I vanish, do they still say my name?"
Told myself nobody cares anyway
Then I pictured my mom tryin' to clean my stains
Lil bro on the couch with the game on pause
Checkin' his screen when I don't text back
Best friend jokin' like "you ghostin' me?"
He laugh
But I know that joke turn flat
[Chorus]
I was one step off that edge
One text away from gone
But I heard my people call my name
Like a choir in my phone
I was right there, breakin' down
Whole world sayin', "just let go"
Then I saw my sister's face in my head
And I couldn't do it to her soul
[Verse 2]
Mirror talk, eyes red like I've never slept
Ask, "If you leave, who cleans up the mess?"
Not the room
The hole in they chest
Empty chairs at the table where I used to sit
Uncle still hurt from his brother last year
Ain't smile right since, every laugh sound weird
You gon' double that grief, make 'em carry that fear?
Got me shakin' with the blade, lookin' back in the mirror
I ain't say I'm okay, I ain't say I'm fine
But I put that weapon down when I thought of they cries
I can bleed on this page, I can scream on these rhymes
Better this than my mother havin' to read my "goodbye"
[Chorus]
I was one step off that edge
One call away from done
But I heard my people in my chest
Like a heartbeat holdin' on
I was right there, breakin' down
Whole world sayin', "just let go"
Then I saw my homies stand in the crowd
And I couldn't leave 'em in that cold
[Bridge]
If I go, who hold they hands?
Who explain what I became?
If I stay, it still hurts bad
But at least they still can say my name
So I'm breathin' in that pain (ugh)
Exhalin' all that shame
I ain't livin' just for me
I'm survivin' for they names
[Chorus]
I was one step off that edge
Both feet hangin' in the dark
But I felt my family pull me back
With the memory of their hearts
I was right there, breakin' down
Whole world sayin', "just let go"
Then I heard my little brother laugh in my head
And I chose to come back home

rap, Moody, introspective trap beat around 82 BPM; distant piano loop with subtle vinyl grit, deep sub-bass, crisp hats. Verses ride close and confessional, male vocals almost whispered at first then gaining grit. Hook opens with layered, slightly detuned harmonies and a lifted synth pad. Sparse ad-libs and drops underline key lines, final chorus pulls the energy up toward hard-won resilience.