[Verse 1]
I built you up inside my head
A silhouette, my safety net
Perfect love in silhouette
Body armor for my chest
Then I woke up, laughed at me
Cut the dream out surgically
Swore the world would never see
A man who’d fit that fantasy
[Pre-Chorus]
So I danced through every night
Told myself I’m doing right
Let the wrong ones hold me tight
Just to feel something like the light
[Chorus]
But now I’m standing here, heart beating out my ribs
Seeing you in real life, everything I once dismissed
Is this a trick, a glitch, a wish I killed?
Confused, I believe now I am
How can the ghost I buried walk and breathe and say my name?
Everything I swore was fake is standing in my way
Tell me is this real or am I lost again?
Confused, I believe now I am
[Verse 2]
Years of lessons, scars, and “no”
Learned to live with letting go
Stomach knots and 3 a.m. echoes
Told my heart, “Girl, you should know better”
Then you smiled, the room went quiet
Every warning lost its riot
Feels like fate just said “try it”
Like the past don’t get no vote
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m swaying, scared to fall
Been burned by almosts, gave my all
But your voice is breaking through the walls
I built when I swore off love
[Chorus]
Now I’m standing here, heart beating out my ribs
Seeing you in real life, everything I once dismissed
Is this a trick, a glitch, a wish I killed?
Confused, I believe now I am
How can the ghost I buried walk and breathe and say my name?
Everything I swore was fake is standing in my way
Tell me is this real or am I lost again?
Confused, I believe now I am
[Bridge – half-time, strings swell, beat drops to heartbeat kick]
I stopped dreaming so the pain would stop
Built a life where hope don’t knock
But you’re knocking, soft and loud
And I don’t know how to let you in right now
Say it slow, say it true
If you’re real, then I’m confused…
[Final Chorus – full choir vocals, 808s hit hard]
Yeah I’m standing here, tears falling, can’t pretend
Every prayer I said was dead is alive again
No more tricks, no more games, just tell me this is it
Confused, but God, I believe now I am
I believe in you, I believe in us, I believe it’s safe
Take this guarded heart and show me how to stay
I was lost, but now I’m found in your eyes
No longer confused, I believe now I am
I believe now… I am.
[Outro – whispered over fading piano]
Confused, I believe…
No, I’m not confused
I believe now I am… in love.
