Unrequited

I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I stayed up all night crying because of it. I won’t even eat because I genuinely feel so sick to my stomach to the point I might throw up. I loved you a lot and I never meant for things to end this way. You can hate me or want me dead, but I will always care for you and love you. You are the best thing I had received, but then I lost it. It really broke me when I heard the words “I want to break up” come out of your mouth. I never wanted to be the person I am. I will change and wait for you, even if it takes years. I hate how I accepted to let you go. I hate how you’re still in my heart because it hurts so much to know that I’ll never be able to feel your touch, your love, or even see you again. I miss how you would poke my sides to make me laugh. I miss how you would compliment my eyes every second and stare deep into them. I just miss you. And I will miss you everyday. You say you’re not good for me, but you’re plenty good enough. I loved spending every second with you, even if it was only for a short time. I hope the next girl you find treats you way better than I ever have. Good luck in military.