It’s not supposed to be like this

I’m so close to the edge I feel myself slipping and slipping I’m gonna fall I can’t seem to catch my stance I can’t feel the ground beneath me. Ive been living a lie for a long long time it’s eating me up on the inside on the outside hardly any of me is left. My life is Like a card game everyday is a gamble your dealt a hand and you don’t get to choose what’s your next move you gonna fold or do i hold no I can’t do that that’s not me instead I put my poker face on like a stone statute I step up to the table and wing it truth be told I’m completely empty no more chips left in me no more cards left to play life has gave me this shitty complete unfair hand and expects me to do magic but I don’t wanna play no more it’s a fixed game and I know who doesn’t win. I’m usually pretty good at bluffing but I’m so tired of trying to win only to end up losing in the end why does life have to be this complicated it’s all one sided and it’s getting worse every day this country is going to hell and the good people in the end don’t make it if your not ruthless and your pockets don’t run deep your replaceable and useless to the rich why is the world full of such evil it wasn’t supposed to be like this