[Verse 1]
You hit my phone when your plans fall through
Say
"You up?" like that's something new
I know the pattern
I still fall in
You hold me close like I'm stand-in skin
You tell your friends I'm "complicated"
But I'm the safe place when you're faded
You say I'm special
I feel rehearsed
Like every word was said to her first
[Pre-Chorus]
Why do I stay when I know I'm waiting?
[low vocal register] Second in line for your hesitation
I swear I hear it
Every time you say my name
[Chorus]
I'm always second place in your heart
Last on the list
First when it’s dark
You call it love
I call it scraps in the dark (yeah-yeah)
I wanna be the one
Not a part-time spark
I'm tired of almost
Tired of "not quite"
Want someone who sees me in the daylight
Who loves the mess
Not just the highlight parts
Not second place in their heart
[melisma riff on "heart"]
[Verse 2]
You keep my sweatshirt
But hide my name
You crop me out of your picture frame
You say I'm "different
" you say I'm "real"
But never ask me how I really feel
You kiss my forehead
Then dodge the truth
You keep a distance
You call it "proof"
That you're "protecting" the both of us
But I'm just covered in your half-trust
[Pre-Chorus]
Why do I bend till my edges break?
Leaving myself in the steps you take
[whispered vocals] If this is love
Why does it feel like
Standing outside in the rain?
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
I want a love that says my name
Like it’s the only name they taste
Not some "maybe
" not a "later"
Not a shadow they replace
[soft runs] I’m not your safety
Not your spare
Not your filler when she’s not there
I’m walking out of this halfway home
'Cause I deserve a love that feels like home (oh, like home)
[Chorus]
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