Verse 1
How can I trust you, when I’m your disguise?
A shadow you lust for under moonlit skies.
You feel so different, it almost feels real—
but step back, it’s clear, I’m something to conceal.
Pre-Chorus
My heart aches to be held, to be healed,
with you it feels close, almost real.
Verse 2
My hive of a mind is too heavy to hold.
I wish I could let go, let the pain unfold.
Exhale what’s buried, release what I hide,
let you catch me as my walls subside.
Show you the earth that’s rotting beneath
the thin wallpaper of my grief.
Pre-Chorus 2
Would you be afraid, would you run away?
I scare myself if I look that way.
That’s why I cover, why I move slow—
I don’t know your darkness, don’t know your soul.
Chorus
In my dreams you’d love me so,
I’d be your princess in this hole.
But I don’t know what’s inside of you—
do you want me the way I want you?
Bridge
Or am I just thirsting for a little love,
in a life deprived of a single true hug?
I don’t know love, don’t know what it means—
I can’t even love myself in-between.
How can I be more than a body to prod,
a niche little cattle among the cog?
Final Chorus
If you love me, tell me so.
Or tell me kindly to let you go.
I’m afraid I’ll hurt you, or worse—myself,
I can’t keep breathing in this hell.
Outro
Not alone at least—
but I’m not sure I can free the beast
I hold inside, the one I dream to expel.
Would you hate me then,
the way I hate myself?