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If it would've been possible to stop your health from ever having gotten old

I would've searched high and low for the equations

To stop you from aging, eliminating time's stamp

The clock ticking loudly, my thoughts talking ever so quietly

And death has you waiting, knocking on our door

But no such coding exists

If we could all just live on forever in the way of love

you'd still be here and I am paying a toll

You were never just another person in my everyday

You were the whole piece that gave me my life

I don't realize it now but didn't know I needed as much as I do now until you were gone

You showed me what it consists of to be a man and what life really looks like and

How to give without expecting anything back

How to be there fully

In a way words can't describe

I think about all the moments you were there without question...

Each memory holding the weight of our shared time

Every moment preserved in the amber of love

If love alone could have kept you here

You'd still be next to me

But even though you're gone...

I believe that

Your spirit lingers in every corner of my world

You're with me in ways I can't even begin to explain

And that's something time will never take away from me

a part of me is always gonna need you , yet this didn't even feel real to me.

I can feel you looking through the space and time

Letting me know you are there

And I feel the pressure pushing down upon me , here I remain, let the process begin , so emotional

And even though I'm learning how to let you go it's profound because you have passed on

All I've learned and what you've installed in me , is a reminder how you showed up for me

Embrace the pain give me the wisdom to find solace in my grieving

And peace through this pain

I understand the process and of that I will not rush

I wouldn't want to miss out on all these wonderful gifts

That you are giving me, filling the void though killing me softly

I greatly accept, the road I'm on step after step.

I love you dad , I miss you , this is just to soon and it don't feel real , to imagine I won't see your face , or hear your laugh , and as a man standing in the mirror, I'm looking at me , and there in my stare I see you reflecting looking at me .

P.s. from me I love you and I'm sorry for your loss . death is rough , loosing ones we love dearly and when it's our mom or dad , the sorrow is most great cause you been with them your whole life , that loss will leave a big hole, and its knowing that you won't hear or see them anymore , and the only way to recover and be able to find joy and happiness is in their memory , you must grieve without rushing it or pushing it back so not to let it bother you , but you must let it all out keep crying in every thought of him stay hearing theire voice on replay in your head as you cry , think of your dad and cry , keep doing it till you run dry and cry no tears keep repeating, greive