Verse 1
Does no one know I cry at night,
Hiding from the glow I’m meant to like?
I tell myself I’ll be okay,
But the truth keeps knocking anyway.
I wake up, armor on my skin,
Smile practiced—let the act begin.
Every breath feels counterfeit,
I’m so good at pretending I’m legit.
Pre-Chorus
It’s getting bad…
(pause)
No—it’s been bad for a while.
But the lights come up, they say my name,
So I stand tall and I play my part.
Chorus
The spotlight’s on me—I don’t get a choice,
I break in silence, then I raise my voice.
Who takes my place if I fall apart?
So I sew myself shut around my heart.
It’s all on me—keep it alive,
I’m bleeding out just to save this life.
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Verse 2
I rehearse my laugh in the bathroom stall,
Tell myself, don’t feel it all.
They call me strong like it’s a gift,
But strength feels heavy when you never slip.
They love the version they get to see,
Not the mess that’s living in me.
If I disappeared just one night,
Would they notice—or just the lights?
Pre-Chorus
I whisper, hold on, just one more day,
Don’t be dramatic, don’t let it shake.
But I’m screaming underneath my breath,
Someone see me before I’m left.
Chorus
The spotlight’s on me—I don’t get a choice,
I break in silence, then I raise my voice.
Who takes my place if I fall apart?
So I sew myself shut around my heart.
It’s all on me—keep it alive,
I’m bleeding out just to save this life.
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Bridge (no instruments, almost spoken)
If I step out of the light for a moment,
Does the world still turn my way?
If I say I’m not okay…
Will you stay—
or walk away?
(full silence)
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Final Chorus (restrained, devastating)
The spotlight’s on me—I stay in line,
Holding it together one beat at a time.
If I stop now, everything caves,
So I’ll stand here strong… at least today.
It’s all on me—don’t ask me why,
I’m losing myself just to make this survive.
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Outro (soft, unresolved)
Does no one know I cry at night…
Or am I just too good at surviving the light?
Bluejay
