Verse 1
Some days I wake up and it’s already too loud
My thoughts like thunder I can’t quiet down
Depression sits heavy like it knows my name
And anxiety keeps playing every fear like a game
I tell myself “I’m fine” but it doesn’t stay true
When my own reflection doesn’t look like me anymore too
Verse 2
I smile in pictures so nobody can tell
But inside it feels like I’m not doing well
I overthink everything I didn’t even say
Then blame myself for feeling this way
And I try to breathe through what I can’t explain
But some nights the silence still feels like pain
Pre-Chorus
And in the middle of all this noise inside my head
There’s one missing piece I can’t forget
Chorus
I miss you more when I’m not okay
Like you were the calm that kept it all away
Now I’m fighting thoughts I don’t know how to tame
And everything feels heavier when I hear your name
I try to be strong but I fall apart instead
Thinking of you in the back of my head
And I don’t know how to heal this space
When I miss you and I’m lost in this place
Verse 3
Nights feel longer when I’m on my own
Scrolling through memories on my phone
Laughing at moments I can’t relive
Wondering why I still can’t forgive
Myself for the distance, the time, the change
For everything that ended up feeling strange
Verse 4
I talk to the ceiling like you’re still around
Like maybe somehow you could hear these sounds
I say your name when nobody’s there
Like it might fill up the empty air
But the truth hits harder when it gets this quiet
Some feelings don’t listen when I try to fight it
Pre-Chorus
And I swear I’m trying just to make it through
But everything still leads me back to you
Chorus
I miss you more when I’m not okay
Like you were the calm that kept it all away
Now I’m fighting thoughts I don’t know how to tame
And everything feels heavier when I hear your name
I try to be strong but I fall apart instead
Thinking of you in the back of my head
And I don’t know how to heal this space
When I miss you and I’m lost in this place
Bridge
If you could see me now, would you recognize
The way I’m barely holding on inside
I’ve learned to smile through broken days
But I still feel you in so many ways
And maybe healing doesn’t come in a line
Maybe it’s just surviving one day at a time
Breakdown
And I don’t say it out loud, but I still care
Even when it feels like nobody’s there
Even when my mind won’t let me rest
Even when I feel like I’m at my best… I’m not really okay
Final Chorus
I miss you more when I’m not okay
Like you were the calm that kept it all away
And I’m still learning how to face each day
With this weight in my chest that won’t fade away
I try to be strong but I fall apart instead
You’re still the echo inside my head
And I don’t know how to heal this space
When I miss you and I’m lost in this place
Outro
Maybe one day I’ll feel like myself again
But tonight I’m just trying to pretend
That I’m okay… even when I’m not
Even when I miss what I lost
