If It’s Not a Hell Yes (It’s a Curse

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Don’t call it “opportunity” if I have to shrink

Don’t hand me a schedule and say, “just don’t think”

I’m not your backup, your Plan B in shoes

If I say no, it’s not mine to lose

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I’ve smiled through nonsense, I’ve nodded through tasks

Now I ask questions—and I wear masks

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If it’s not a hell yes—then darling, it’s a curse

I won’t contort myself to make your version work

Don’t offer “maybes” wrapped in glitter and dust

If you don’t burn for it—I won’t adjust

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I’ve said yes to things I couldn’t name

Just to be “nice” in someone else’s game

But I’m no longer built for gray

I’ll speak in no and walk away

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Time is my treasure

Attention’s my throne

And access to me?

Is heavily loaned

You want my spark?

Show me your flame—

Or leave quietly

Without your name

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If it’s not a hell yes—then let it fall

I won’t juggle garbage to please them all

I don’t do tepid, I don’t do guilt

I do cathedrals—and I build them on will

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If it’s not a hell yes…

It’s a hell.

And I don’t live there anymore.