Another dream another time these days to die again

Do you have any idea how many times I am considered trying to fly away from a suicidal ideation,

And so incidentally there's just me in my space of loneliness you have no idea how much I wish their life could be so different today so maybe now is the time that's it grow these wings maybe I can fly I can see the side of so many different things the water is flooding so maybe it has to wait and I should go maybe I could find my way to forget how to swim and go down down would you miss me baby would you miss a f****** thing I'm just a father who fail almost f****** daily so now maybe I should find a way to another dream I really hope that you might love me baby someday somehow in some kind of peculiar with you but I guess they just f****** deviation of a dream and nothing close to my reality,

Maybe someday in another place another dream another waste of flesh and skin maybe there you might let me in