[Pre-Intro]
Do you even know the struggles behind someone’s mask?
[Intro]
Well heres my struggles behind my mask
[Verse]
Every day I try to mask out my struggles during everything I always play my character as the goofy creative weirdo the mostly everyone knows
But there’s always someone behind my back always silently, judging me silently criticizing me throughout every action I have while masking
[Pre Chorus]
Imagine having yourself behind you, but they are much worse and dangerous no matter how much you try to escape them. They’re always behind your back no friend or partner could ever shield you from the monster cause they are you but much more evil.
[Chorus]
But when you’re alone by yourself in your own apartment or house or maybe driving to your work or a chore, they’re always beside you or behind you criticizing every little thing about yourself about what you’re feeling about what you’re thinking of there are always bullying you
[Verse]
I struggle with thoughts, criticizing my insecurities from recent relationships from recent friendships that have been toxic towards me and just throwing more into the trauma that I have in myself and I can’t escape it and it’s affecting me mentally a lot
It’s affecting me physically about what I’m eating. How am I dieting? How am I drinking? Everything depends on my thoughts treating me well or treating me horribly.
[Chorus]
It’s like your own thoughts and your well-being are having a tug-of-war your thoughts keep on pulling and pulling the rope while you’re struggling to pull on the other side and sometimes the thoughts will let go and let you free for a little bit and then grab hole again and pull you and drag you down and let go again for a little while
[Guitar Solo]
[Bridge]
I have the biggest fear of abandonment, especially towards the friends that stick by me and no my struggles. I am fearing that I’m gonna lose some because of myself or what am I gonna do if I lose them I am so scared. I am so scared to see that happen
And I hope it never comes to it.
[Final Chorus]
Even if you have the friends that you need for your therapy, is it really gonna help you than a professional?
Some friends will speak their heart out of what they think of what you’re struggling with or they will just sit and listen and say barely anything because they don’t know what to do
[Outro]
But it’s always good to have friends and you’re close with and you know that you will change one day that you will get out of this prison in your head
