My life

I'm just in so much pain, the thought of having the weight of the world on my shoulders but yet it feels like I can't satisfy even though I put up with all your bullshit. I try to calm down and enter peace of mind but it gets disrupted by your loud voice echoing in my thoughts. My pain is nothing to you only the things that you have suffered are the only things you understand and only thing you accept please try to understand that the things I say isn't in defense but to help you understand my actions but you ignore my thoughts. You put me in the dirt as if I was nothing but a worm to you and you are a bird waiting for me to eat. I can never get any closure for anything I have to say but you get angry when I yell or scream. No matter what the fight is I am always by your side, but I fear that we are parting the seas and I'm the ocean and you are Moses, I can never touch you or feel you only the pressure of your magic holding me up away from you