Trifecta .

Surviving the streets Brings a constant state of grief

Success feels out of reach Death feels easier to achieve

Exiguous significance but there’s more that I can be

If the bad shit comes in threes imma need some reprieve

I’m tryna build a kingdom

For my lil Kingston

i remember being told

i was never gonna be none

Stranded in the cold

Never gonna see sun

So give me some appraise

Kept it up with the charade

I abandoned the dope,Put on a good show

Until it was real & I started to feel

A certain relief Less need to people please

Less like a fraud Like i deserved the applaud

And If anyone protest .

Just know my peace I’ll protect .

Wouldn’t wanna trigger

Who I am in my center

I just wanna do right

Give my kids a good life

Gotta stay reminded

Success is never final

Failure is never fatal

Only true death has no survival

If life is a trifecta, which stage will most affect ya

Was it worse as a child

when your parents neglected to protect ya

Did you hate it inside

As an inmate in corrections

Constantly questioning life

Feels like going 80 undirected

Keeping my head above my shoulders

Is taking the strength of a soldier

Caving my knees , with the weight of a boulder

Wanna glide through this shit

so I can say I never folded

Gotta find a better grip

Keep my ass off the sofa

Grinding up my chips

Put my family in motion

Ain’t much more reason to trip

gotta tell myself to take the win

All these flashes from the past

Are just holding me back

From healing with class

Can’t keep my emotions in tact

Control gets harder to grasp

Takes all of me not to back track

Even though I know that I’m blessed

I’m slowly going from the stress

Muscles tight , with tingles in my neck

I’m supposed to fight

With no fight fucking left

I’m Doing it for y’all , cuz I got nothing left

And I know it ain’t right

I know all we got is this life

So I’m pushing for that brighter future in my sights

For my girls

For my son

And my one

I’ll carry the weight

So y’all don’t feel the tons

Put shackles on my brain

When I feel the pressure to run

Give new meaning to my name

Haze is no longer any fun

Now my grass so clean from snakes

Cuz I made it out the slums

Keep on growing through the changes

for the ones that I love

Gotta stay reminded

Success is never final

Failure is never fatal

Only true death has no survival

If life is a trifecta, which stage will most affect ya

Was it worse as a child

when your parents neglected to protect ya

Did you hate it inside

As an inmate in corrections

Constantly questioning life

Feels like going 80 undirected

Keeping my head above my shoulders

Is taking the strength of a soldier

Caving my knees, with the weight of a boulder

Wanna glide through this shit

so I can say I never folded

Gotta find a better grip

Keep my ass off the sofa

Grinding up my chips

Put my family in motion

Ain’t much more reason to trip

gotta tell myself to take the win .